FUZZY BRAIN

When I was finally diagnosed with spondylitis 7 years ago, it was my body of course that showed the signs first: the pain and stiffness, fatigue. When I began graduate school two years after that, something else happened, another facet of the illness appeared causing a different sort of trouble: brain fog. As I went […]

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MISBEHAVING BODIES

While in London recently I was incredibly lucky to have finally seen some of Jo Spence’s work. She is someone I was pointed to several years ago as I was working on crafting my own illness narrative for my MA thesis in creative writing, and I’ve been fascinated by her ever since. While it was […]

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NEARLY A YEAR…

I am no closer to achieving any dream than I was a year ago, and I would be lying if I said that I’m okay with that. I would be lying if I said that I’m perfectly fine with this spondylitis body of mine. With the fatigue. With the pain. And how both of these […]

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GHOSTS OF A HOME

The tiny, L-shaped room my father had once used as his office was even dustier than the basement.  It was a room of ghosts.  One layer of dust after another had settled on the contents: The bowling and baseball trophies.  The framed photo of me at age six in my pink trench coat wearing my […]

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MAPS

I was so inspired by seeing Tolkien’s maps of Middle Earth when I attended “Tolkien: Maker of Middle Earth” at the Ashmolean back in June.  He created drafts and drafts of various maps—adding and subtracting as he thought of things.  By his literally mapping out of the universe he created in his head….if we stepped […]

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‘INSTAR’

“The process of transformation consists mostly of decay and then of this crisis when emergence from what came before must be total and abrupt. But the changes in a butterfly’s life are not always so dramatic.  The strange resonant word instar describes the stage between two successive molts, for as it grows, a caterpillar, like […]

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