The past and the present. Me: wearing a 24-hr holter monitor to check for cardiac abnormalities as a regular course of events for someone who has AS. My grandfather: child support papers from Germany regarding my mother…a man who’s face she never saw, who’s name she never knew up until one month ago.
Me trying to create a visible connection to the grandfather I’ve always felt, but never seen. He died from a heart attack.
The body tells us things. Things that have been secret. Things unacknowledged.
I used to put together a slide show each year showcasing my family’s Christmas revels, but then I stopped. This year I took up the task once again.