The past and the present.  Me: wearing a 24-hr holter monitor to check for cardiac abnormalities as a regular course of events for someone who has AS.  My grandfather: child support papers from Germany regarding my mother…a man who’s face she never saw, who’s name she never knew up until one month ago.

Me trying to create a visible connection to the grandfather I’ve always felt, but never seen.  He died from a heart attack.

The body tells us things.  Things that have been secret.  Things unacknowledged.